Wandering scribbler..

Today my blog has completed a year..And I feel so blessed that atleast some people are reading it..In this one year this blog has become more like a constant companion for me to whom I can turn to in my hard times..Last year on this date when I had first started writing I had never thought anyone would even care to read it that's why I hadn't even told anyone but now it seems so surprising that some people actually read my blog.. I have often been asked as to why "velocity07"?Actually I was extremely fascinated by the term velocity from the day I first heard of it and because I have always loved physics I had kept this name..And 07 because i was born on the 16th of May!! I remember when I was really small and I had just learned to write I maintained a diary in which I wrote my stuff and gradually that became a habit.Initially when I used to write I used to share everything I had written with my Mom but as I grew up I maintained the diary really privately and wrote abo...

5 years back i was gifted the book Unaccustomed earth by dada(my grandfather) on my birthday and i fell in love with the book just from the time i saw its cover..There was something so intense about the cover page that i just couldn't wait to read it..And when i read it i found it was outstanding..And from then on it became the best book I had ever read(it still is).. And I was so possessive(I still am!) about that book that I dint even want to lend it to my cousin to read it(because she is mishandles books!!)....I really love the title of the book it is a metaphor for the struggle people undergo to be accustomed or settled..I like the title story Unaccustomed earth the best in the book..There were certain parts in the book which had a profound effect on my life specially the part in the title story where Ruma's father asks her “Will this make you happy?”I also liked the last story Hema and Kaushik which was represented in three parts but I wish it had a happier ending... I hav...

Happy Anniversary to my dada(grandfather) and dadi(grandmother)...I love and miss you a lot.. Jijo

Another milestone crossed today i have turned 17 years old...Friends who wished me mostly asked what plans i had for the day which i have been asked almost every year and to which i give the same reply every year that "nothing special i'll be at home!" I am usually at home during my birthday in fact,I don't like celebrating my birthday and spend it like any typical day...I know with this i may sound like a boring person but this is how i am..This year my friend Megz wished me first on my birthday (though i was not awake when she did!) i called her in the morning to say thanks..Surprisingly she is always the first one among my friends to wish me on my birthday... These days i have hardly had the time to get back to my friends but they have all been so supportive i am so thankful that i have them in my life... The last year was quite okay for me but it ended really badly..My horoscope for this year says keep expectations realistic. Your life can't always be perfect...

It is so hard responding to calls from relatives when they ask when and how and what time this happened I just know that it happened..And she is no more and She's not coming back I remember the last time dadi and I went out together she came in through this door holding my hand and yesterday I saw her maybe for the last time in my life being taken through the same door..Every time we sat together in her room chatting and I sat at the end of the bed or at the arm rest of the chair she used to tell me a thousand times till I got up from there "jijo pore jabi okhan theke uthe por"(jijo u'll fall down from there,get up)..And I used to tell her "ami porbo na dadi,tumi chinta korona"(u don't worry dadi I won't fall down") But now I feel as if I've falling apart I can never get used to the fact that I will never get to see dada and dadi again...I feel as if I have lost the two closest friends that I had somewhere from where they will never retur...

Life seems so hard..Nowadays either I get disturbed and tensed about what is happening or I just feel as if something within me is weakening but I have faith in god that everything will be fine..I have faith that one day not far from now she is going to hold my hand and walk out that door and everything will be fine again..I don't want to lose dadi I just don't want to lose her..Whenever I hold her hand I can feel that she is telling me to do something but one day I hope i will be able to do something when I become a doctor...I hope dadi comes back home soon and we can watch our favorite mythological serials again on Sundays.. I just hope she recovers soon I cant see her go through so much pain it almost feels as if I am feeling her pain myself...The other day when I was crying my mother told me that we are doing our best and we must leave the rest to god... I am feeling really strange..whenever I go to school I miss saying goodbye to her.. I know you people must be tired of re...

I am feeling really sad..I don't know why this always happens with me that whenever things start to go my way something bad always happens..It almost seems like someone is purposely hurting me in those spheres of life which will prick the most..I don't know why I feel i am losing all my strength and serenity..My grandma is unwell and is put on the ventilator..I am feeling so helpless..I have never cried in front of people since my grandfather died 2 years back but nowadays I cry at all times..I just don't want to cry but I don't no why I just can't stop my tears..When my grandfather died it took me a lot of time to accept the fact that he is not coming back I would sometimes wake up from sleep and cry when I thought about him....And this time I don't want to lose my grandmother for anything..Today when she held my hands I told her "don't worry we're all here you will be fine I won't let anything happen to you" and I just couldn't stop m...