Wandering scribbler..

We dream... We set a time limit for our dreams... We struggle and strive to fulfill them... Some dreams come true and some remain as dreams... Now if it comes true you're fortunate its something you've fought for... But what if you don't make it... Either you accept it and move on being satisfied that you tried or you try again and again... Since the last year I've come across many people belonging to the second category  those who would fight for their dreams and struggle to make it happen...Students who would travel long distances in buses and then metro and then walk to the Medical/Engineering coaching institute, Some students who would stay far away from their homes in a PG or mess close to their Coaching institute because they couldn't make it the year before... Students who preferred struggle rather than compromising their dreams... Year after year students drop out just to give their dreams another chance just to study Medicine,or to get through...

I was chatting with a friend(who always tries to link me up to new people!) and she asked me to describe my Mr Right and how he should be(even though I'd told her i believe Mr Right is a myth but she wouldn't listen..)! I don't know what he should be like i mean,i have NEVER analyzed the Mr Right concept before(maybe because i used to read Tolstoy when my friends started Mills and Boons!).. Anyway, so this is my take on my Mr Right.!   When I stay up late to paint a new picture and when its complete just the way I've wanted it to be and even though I have paint smeared on my hands,face and clothes there's this feeling of serenity and comfort... Talking to you should feel like this.. On the days I feel I've messed up and  almost nothing falls in its place and then you finally finish something you've been struggling on for a long time...And seeing you happy eases me from all the tension that was. Happiness should feel this... On the day...

I am in Mumbai yet again and I'm spending some jobless and useless moments here..So I'm spending my time watching people around me,and walking to Marine drive(though its quite far from the apartment..) Here are some of my observations..(as I have nothing better to write!) Yesterday I saw a really cute middle aged couple  in the cab before us,the husband and wife looked quite untouched by the rain and traffic outside...He settled her gajra and she laughed and put her head on his shoulders lovingly... For the few minutes that I saw them,they seemed quite in love and quite unconcerned of the world outside... I am not much of a 'gawk at people' type person but there was seriously something magical and innocent about them which was rare in other cases... As the cab moved past us, i wondered was it just the rain or love is in the air of Mumbai... I saw many more of such couples at Marine drive yesterday and today but they were not as interesting to watch as the...

I know its been a while but things changed so fast and so drastically..That i had to struggle to keep up with those changing things.. Well!Its been hell of a month.. I have been feeling extremely lost as if i don't know why I am doing,what I am doing and if at all it is right or not..And I can't even see a way out.. Things in life and at school have also turned really ugly,so ugly that i feel like leaving everything aside and just go on a long long vacation to some unknown place!! But i obviously can't do that.. I was expecting life will be a bit better from last month but it actually worsened..! I just saw my Biology and Physics marks last day and it was disgusting.. I feel as if i am on the verge of losing this.. And I have planned something(yes you read that right!'I' have actually thought of a plan!!) that i will try and lessen the distractions in life and only focus on my career(atleast for once in my life) So Friends i wont be writing much till then.. ciao Too...

I am feeling so terrible today that i just couldn't help but come back to self confession again..My exams are on the 31st and I am so not prepared..I just realized that i'm wasting every second of the precious days left for my exams but I just can't help it...I don't know where i'm going to in life,I don't know whether I'll reach till the end..I just don't know.. :( Maybe this is god's way of waking me up and saying "now deal with this!!" I always had this ambition of becoming a Doctor but now i am loosing sight of my ambition day by day..I don't know when exactly I knew I wanted to be a doctor but I always had this passion for studying medicine...I have been told I'm not good enough and that I should choose an alternative career option but I can never imagine myself pursuing anything else.. I have been told that it will be very tough for me and I know that life is not idealistic but Life seems so queer with all these twists and tur...

I love the autumn season specially the thought that the leaves turn into a bright red color..I had come across an article recently that the best places to see autumn colors are New Zealand,England and Central Otago.I so wish I could spend every autumn of my life at such a place where fall leaves turn bright red.... I am not much of a romantic person but the thought of walking together through piles of crisp autumn leaves sounds so perfect.... I have always been immensely fascinated by the leaves of fall which change their color to red because of maturity... We too have many such instances in life when we feel mature..Just like the first time we go out for a movie with friends or the first time we are given some responsibility or the moment when you know you could have said a lot of things in rage but you control yourself....Maturity shouldnot be mistaken with age.. Maturity is not the absence of childishness but it is the presence of knowledge,it is the ability to learn from your past ...

I turned 16 this year..!!!I always eagerly waited for my 16th b'day but when the day finally came that spirit diminished.....It was then that I tried to figure out what has changed in these years..There have been a lot of changes in my life since the last year..But more than anything else i have changed..I am still the old opinionated,outspoken,practical and rude person i used to be, but its just that my outlook towards life has changed.This blog is a memory of my triumphs and also my defeats,all my speculations and also my abstention,all my doubts and also their lucidities... This blog is dedicated to all the hard times i faced in this one year and the harder ones ahead of me.... I think the word that describes me best is simple.Maybe because i don't belong to the so called 'cool' brigade' where people fake an accent or have a yuppie attitude.People who are not acquainted with me think i'm serious or quiet but my friends wish i was!!I remember during my Parent...