Cloud of dust

I know its been a while but things changed so fast and so drastically..That i had to struggle to keep up with those changing things..
Well!Its been hell of a month..
I have been feeling extremely lost as if i don't know why I am doing,what I am doing and if at all it is right or not..And I can't even see a way out..
Things in life and at school have also turned really ugly,so ugly that i feel like leaving everything aside and just go on a long long vacation to some unknown place!!
But i obviously can't do that..
I was expecting life will be a bit better from last month but it actually worsened..!
I just saw my Biology and Physics marks last day and it was disgusting..
I feel as if i am on the verge of losing this..
And I have planned something(yes you read that right!'I' have actually thought of a plan!!) that i will try and lessen the distractions in life and only focus on my career(atleast for once in my life)
So Friends i wont be writing much till then..
ciao
Toodloo!

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