Wandering scribbler..

I changed my blog address yesterday!! I don't know why maybe because I wanted to get rid of some unwanted people in my life or maybe because I realized an inevitable truth about myself yesterday which I knew before also ,but never agreed to it..(Though even now I have trouble agreeing to it) But velocity07.blogspot.com continues to be my favorite webpage for my blog and it was extremely painful to part with it but i guess I just had too..Maybe I've had enough of velocity in life now all that I need is acceleration..isn't it?!

Something really bad happened today..And I dont want to talk about it anymore. I really miss Dada Dadi, I dont know how to put up with life without them. .I don't know why they left me like this..Dada dint go anywhere without me don't know why he stranded me in the end like this..I wish I could bring them back somehow..I am feeling so disgusted and pained that I just can't do anything but cry..I just can't take it anymore, I just can't....I don't know how to react..but from today I have torn off a part of me perhaps forever..

I am a proud sister today my sister got through in one of the best colleges in India plus a dream job in one of the best core companies..I am so happy for her,so happy that tears roll down my eyes when I see her today and remember one day many years back when I was really small and I had got a scolding for some reason and I had gone to her and told her that "Ju maybe I wont be able to do anything in life but you study hard you have to make mummy and Babi(thats what I call my dad) proud "!!And she doesn't know how very proud I am..I almost feel as if I have got through that college!! Even now whether I make it big in life or not I really really want her to get all the happiness in the world and even more.. Ju has always been like a little sister for me though she is 5 years elder to me I have always treated her like a child infact mum tells me I worry about ju much much much more than she does..Even though I know she can handle herself but still I just can't let her b

Recently my friend Pritz(I had written about her in my post "For all those times".) and I resolved our issues and for the first time in this month I felt kinda light,I felt as if things are going to get better in my life as before....It's been one year from that day that we spoke and the night before my Biology exam when she texted me I got a flash of old memories and for sometime I just kept staring at the phone..Then I texted her back and things were back to normal as it was before..Thank god for that!! But we couldn't talk much as my phone crapped up(bad timing) and my sister is not kind enough to lend me her phone for more than half an hour..In this one month that was one moment when I finally had some clarity in relations otherwise this whole month has been a complete mess!!And so many stressfull things going on in my life all at the same time was making it really hard to put up with but this is life....Isn't it?!

I dont find it hard to to make friends maybe because I am outgoing or maybe because I am always in a struggle to deal with my emptiness.. But I don't call myself lonely there is always lots to do,lots to read,lots to think about and worry about..!! Emptiness is something all of us try to deal with but still somewhere inside deep inside it still remains..Whenever I feel empty I write or listen to songs or speak to my sister or my best friend and sometimes when this emptiness gets over me I sit alone for some time and recollect and retrospect over my life you may say that I brood over things but I would say I do something which I actually need at that time,I try to get a grip!! Sometimes I think it would be nice to have someone to share my emptiness or rather fill my emptiness someone who would fill it in his own way..But then when life goes back to it's old track I realize that maybe this emptiness is actually an illusion.. Like I recently read in a story in Hindi that it

I have recently opened a Twitter account,I have resisted it for some time as I dint want another source of wasting time..But I guess I just had to because it has Mitch Albom and Rahul Bose in it..!!! And now i waste so much time on it that my eyes start hurting!!! Anyway twitter is way better than Facebook take my word on it..