Wandering scribbler..

In today's world when the virtual world is taking over the real world and relationships... I can't help but wonder are real emotions too giving away to virtual expression of feelings... There was a time when love stories meant love letters written to one another..I remember I had found a letter safely kept in one of Dada's books with a dried up rose inside which he had written to my Dadi.. My Dad had written love letters to my mum which they are too embarrassed to show us(though i always insist..!!)...!! But nowadays this lovely gesture has been replaced by texts messages and (the worst part)status updates professing ones love.... Most of my friends and acquaintances first proclaimed their love through texting or phone calls and emails... Have we lost the hand written love letter in our digital world then? When we were in school and we used to have these silly fights with each other,and things got worse, we used to write a letter to each other to peacefully prove o

Sometimes people come into our lives and change the way we feel for it... Sometimes people(who are not that important to us..) go out of the way to help us and we wonder why? And sometimes there are people really close to us,who we count upon and expect to be by our side... But do they...? When you really care for a person and at times even worry about that person is it wrong to expect the same from them? But we all expect some amount of emotion in return don't we?  Can we ever be in any relation without expectations... Now we do not expect anyone to try to make everyday worth living for us (because we'd have to do that ourselves ...) but we do expect some people to "bother" about our feelings and our emotions because we did the same for them...  Maybe we had gone out of the way solving some one's issues or worried about them when they had a breakup or just listened to their emotional issues at other times or just been with them when they really needed

We've always had heated up arguments  among friends over silly issues but we've solved them and come to an understanding.. There have been times when we vowed never to speak to each other but then ultimately we've always come back to each other and solved our issues... Fights and difference in opinions are kinda normal in every relationship.. But the question is to what extent do they remain they normal and avoidable.? Sometimes fights get down to that extent that it might strain the relation... I've had one such fight with a friend after which we dint speak to each other for years but then we did sort out our problems later...But the truth is now our friendship has changed in such a way that we maybe "Friends" but I cannot trust her anymore... We've always been told by our teachers and mentors that we shouldn't let the ego become a factor in relationships... Maybe ego actually should be kept aside in our relationships but what about dignity a

Nowadays i usually take my armchair out on the terrace, my dogs nandini and bittu follow me despite their lazy schedule..They nibble the scattered leaves and run around,giving me comical looks from time to time... I was sitting in my armchair at the terrace today when it started raining... Nandini and bittu ran inside expecting me to follow them this time, but i dint.. I remember when i was in kindergarten i had seen that movie Chaalbaaz in which Sri devi had this dance wearing a transparent raincoat and from that day i desperately wanted a raincoat like that....!! When rainy season came i had made up my mind to wear a raincoat to school... So my mom got me this pink raincoat and i told her to write my name on its collar in block letters lest someone takes it from me...! I wanted to wear it to school everyday(irrespective of the fact whether it rained or not..!!)... When it rained in the evenings i would quickly wear my raincoat and run outside in the rain and when asked i woul

I just officially accepted that I'm going through a really tough time,when i burnt my cookies....Okay you might think I'm superstitious but let me tell you i  am NOT superstitious(or am I!!) Yes i have a lucky pen and lucky chain(is that being superstitious!!!?)... I remember during my boards when most of my friends turned religious i realized that i needed to start studying ASAP!!! Anyway speaking of superstitious recently a friend nearly gave me a mini heart attack by saying that she's planning to do some santoshi ma ka vrarth..! For quite sometime i thought she was joking but then she told me why she plans to do it and blah blah and i understood she was serious. She told me that she's keeping this fast because she thinks "by doing this fast her wish will be fulfilled.." I dint know what to tell her just because i dint believe in it i had no right to disregard somebody else's.. But i couldn't help but wonder, Does the 'next generation sel

Maybe I am a misfit in many ways I  don't fit into many places(not that i try to!!) and I am too stuck up on things to change myself...!! Maybe thats why some people think I am proud or that I think highly about myself...But I'll tell you the truth i have no reason to.. I've thought a lot about "things" recently and realized that maybe at some point I am kinda boring..!!  I'd rather be happy watching  squirrels(who i have named, kiri and kathu!) running on my window ledge,and walking through unknown streets, empty fields and shed a tear reading an old novel which touched me and be totally unmoved by reading another... I try my best to remove any misconception that arise between my friends and don't give a damn to what others think of me...  I am not on Facebook(at present!!), not much of a shopper, hate partying and I'd rather spend my time in a bookshop with a book... I write for the love of it be it in my diary or this blog and paint whe