Wandering scribbler..

I dont find it hard to to make friends maybe because I am outgoing or maybe because I am always in a struggle to deal with my emptiness.. But I don't call myself lonely there is always lots to do,lots to read,lots to think about and worry about..!! Emptiness is something all of us try to deal with but still somewhere inside deep inside it still remains..Whenever I feel empty I write or listen to songs or speak to my sister or my best friend and sometimes when this emptiness gets over me I sit alone for some time and recollect and retrospect over my life you may say that I brood over things but I would say I do something which I actually need at that time,I try to get a grip!! Sometimes I think it would be nice to have someone to share my emptiness or rather fill my emptiness someone who would fill it in his own way..But then when life goes back to it's old track I realize that maybe this emptiness is actually an illusion.. Like I recently read in a story in Hindi that it...

I love the autumn season specially the thought that the leaves turn into a bright red color..I had come across an article recently that the best places to see autumn colors are New Zealand,England and Central Otago.I so wish I could spend every autumn of my life at such a place where fall leaves turn bright red.... I am not much of a romantic person but the thought of walking together through piles of crisp autumn leaves sounds so perfect.... I have always been immensely fascinated by the leaves of fall which change their color to red because of maturity... We too have many such instances in life when we feel mature..Just like the first time we go out for a movie with friends or the first time we are given some responsibility or the moment when you know you could have said a lot of things in rage but you control yourself....Maturity shouldnot be mistaken with age.. Maturity is not the absence of childishness but it is the presence of knowledge,it is the ability to learn from your past ...