Wandering scribbler..

" Someone once told me that some of us are actually afraid of the dark; we’re scared of what it conceals from us. We’re afraid of having something with the potential to hurt us standing right before our eyes and not registering it as a threat. People can be like that too. "

I think about silly stuff sometimes maybe because I am coffee deprived now because of my sleeplessness people at home refuse to make me coffee (or let me make it!) ...!!! I mean not always but sometimes nowadays i end up thinking "what if.....?"..(maybe because some of my friends just have to wet my shoulder with tears...!*no not complaining..!!*)  Like the other day one of my friends had a breakup and she was telling me about how lonely she feels as she has lost touch with most of her friends and in the end we came to the conclusion that one should never become too habituated with anyone(which is to a certain extent silly but anyways....!).. And then i started thinking about the few friends i have and what if someday we lose touch or what if we just grow out of each other ...I dint know the answer to that (maybe i could have figured it out with just a simple cup of black coffee ...!!!!) Now i was being really silly but my coffee deprived mind was still unsatisfied and j...

Sometimes when nothing seems right i look into the sky and look for my answers... And in all those stars i try to fathom which ones you are or if at all you are there or not and then like magic i get a weird sense of serenity as if all these questions and all my chaos is projected out to that wild dream worth living...

(Follows from Ehsaas part III  http://memoriesinrain.blogspot.in/2013/03/ehsaassamajh-ke-bhi-na-hosake.html  ) Aj bus keh dena hai.. Samajh paye na paye tu..in baato mei chupe us unkahe se ehsaas ko.. Us ehsaas mei meri sachayi ko....aj bus....abhi....yahi keh dena hai.. Jo hai hum dono ke beech.. Shayad na samajh paye tu.. Shayad pura na samajh payu mai.. Par aj meri bus tu hai..tu hai main hu aur ye unkaha sa ehsaas hai.. bus aj aur intezaar nahi hoga is dilse.. Bus keh dena hai aj.. Kyuki tujhme hi mai hu....aur shayad mujhme hi hai ab tu.. Ye ehsaas bus abhi....bus yahi tujhe samjha dena hai.. Tere na hone par bhi... tu hai yahi..bus yahi.. paas hai mere.... toh abhi toh dur aur nahi rehne dena hai.. Hai ye jo bhi..jo bhi maine mehsoos kiya hai.. Aj bus abhi puri sachayi se tujhe keh dena hai.. Bus ab sab kuch kehdena hai..

Kabhi kabhi yun hi behoshi mei mann karta hai bata du tumhe.. Bata du ki kaun ho tum mere..bus be-inteha the tum mere... Kabhi kabhi yun hi adhi raato k sannate mei.. Ji karta hai suna du tumhe ki kitni raate neend nahi ayi hume.. Kabhi kabhi yun hi nashe mei khud ko dubokar.. Dil karta hai tod du har bandhan kar seema aur bus dube rahu us lamhe mei.. Kabhi kabhi yun mehsoos hota hai.. Kabhi kabhi..kabhi kabhi...  yun... Kya tumhe kabhi hota hai..

This time when we meet..I will tell you how much I missed you.. I will stare at your deep brown eyes till I no longer can.. And hold you so tight that you can never free yourself! This time when I meet you I won't be scared to hold hands and walk with you till we lose our path.. This time when I meet you I will tell you all the words that we left unsaid.. And speak to you till the stars are tired of our trysts.. This time when I meet you I'll listen to all your war stories and I promise I won't cry.. And we'll live forever in our little cottage beside the mountain and the lake.. This time when I meet you....    this time.. This time when we meet each other we'll change our destiny and write our tale and be together till our name fades..

(Ehsaas part II  http://memoriesinrain.blogspot.in/2013/03/ehsaaskuch-toh-hai-shayad.html ) Unko dekhe se jo mil jati hai is dil ko raahat... Kaise kahe ki kya hai ye ehsaas.. Kya hai akhir ye ajeebse dard ka rishta.. Unki awaaz se jo chir jate hai is dil k taar lagta hai aise ki bus kuch nai kuch bhi nahi aur is jeevan mei pane k layak.. Unki berukhi se kyu zindagi bus tham si jaye ya unki baato se kyu sulajh sa jaye ye jeevan... Kya hai ye ehsaas samajhke bhi anjaan hai hum.... Kyu unse hi dard baatna chahe ye dil kyu unki khamoshi mei bhi ye apne jawaab dhondna chahe.. Unse na milne se jo bechain hojaye ye dil.. Kya hai ye ehsaas..kya hai ye ehsaas kyu samajh ke bhi anjaan hai hum.. Kyu na ho sake humse bayaan.. Kyu shabdheen sa hojayu mai bus thehr si jaye ye zubaan Kya hai aur kyu hai ye ehsaas.. Shayad samajh ke bhi na hosake gi beyaan..