Wandering scribbler..

Today while coming out of my Biology tuition I slipped but then I somehow regained my balance.!! Yes I slipped again..!!A year back on my 16th birthday I slipped and fractured my ankle!!Actually it's my fault only there are two staircases in my biology tuition both leading to the exit, one is the normal kinda stairs which we generally have and the other one is a spiral staircase which opens outwards (yes you can even see the sky from it's broken corners!) but it doesnot even have a railing in some places and it's extremely narrow(exactly the size of my foot!!yes I did measure it!!) and steep!! So as you may have guessed by now I regularly use the spiral staircase!!Girls in my tuition can't even think of using that staircase and I don't know why even guys don't use it!!(maybe they are scared!!).. I really don't understand why I love those 'danger stairs' (yes my friends call it that) so much but I actually do..I remember once when I was about four or ...

Sometimes it's actually important to just let go of things specially if they hurt you immensely... People change and you have to accept it that way..Anyway I patched up with my sister after a 2 month long fight it's the longest we have gone without speaking...But I guess this was really necessary because we both were getting way too dependent on each other..But in those 2 months I realized how weak I am without her..I tried hard not to talk about this in front of Riko(my best friend) so that I don't end up crying but whenever I told her(Riko) about it I mostly did.. And that's why I took the first step (unlike my usual egoistic self) and cleared the air between us(though it was her fault!).. But I am glad things are better now, atleast something is normal in my life now..!After 2 months of silence now we finally can talk normally..I realized that things change with time and if you love someone truly you'll accept that person with that change.. I also realized some...

I have been reading Javed Akhtar's poems lately and I really wanted to share this one..Here it goes.. mujhko yakin hai such kahti thi jo bhi ammi kahti thin, jab mere bachpan ke din the chand me pariyan rahti thi ek ye din jab apno ne bhi hum se nata tod liya, ek wo din jab ped ki shakhen bojh humara sahti thi ek ye din jab sari sadken roothi-roothi lagti hain, ek wo din jab aao khelen sari galiyan kahtin thi ek ye din jab jaagi raten deevaron ko takti hain, ek wo din jab shamon ki bhi palken bojhil rahti thi ek ye din jab lakhon gum aor kal pada hai aansoo ka, ek wo din jab ek jara si bat pe nadiyan bahti thi..

I know its been a while but things changed so fast and so drastically..That i had to struggle to keep up with those changing things.. Well!Its been hell of a month.. I have been feeling extremely lost as if i don't know why I am doing,what I am doing and if at all it is right or not..And I can't even see a way out.. Things in life and at school have also turned really ugly,so ugly that i feel like leaving everything aside and just go on a long long vacation to some unknown place!! But i obviously can't do that.. I was expecting life will be a bit better from last month but it actually worsened..! I just saw my Biology and Physics marks last day and it was disgusting.. I feel as if i am on the verge of losing this.. And I have planned something(yes you read that right!'I' have actually thought of a plan!!) that i will try and lessen the distractions in life and only focus on my career(atleast for once in my life) So Friends i wont be writing much till then.. ciao Too...

I changed my blog address yesterday!! I don't know why maybe because I wanted to get rid of some unwanted people in my life or maybe because I realized an inevitable truth about myself yesterday which I knew before also ,but never agreed to it..(Though even now I have trouble agreeing to it) But velocity07.blogspot.com continues to be my favorite webpage for my blog and it was extremely painful to part with it but i guess I just had too..Maybe I've had enough of velocity in life now all that I need is acceleration..isn't it?!

Something really bad happened today..And I dont want to talk about it anymore. I really miss Dada Dadi, I dont know how to put up with life without them. .I don't know why they left me like this..Dada dint go anywhere without me don't know why he stranded me in the end like this..I wish I could bring them back somehow..I am feeling so disgusted and pained that I just can't do anything but cry..I just can't take it anymore, I just can't....I don't know how to react..but from today I have torn off a part of me perhaps forever..