Wandering scribbler..

Is chaatne aur chatwane ki duniya mei , Kabhi juta toh kabhi salam thokne ki addato mei roj marra ke boring se fasano mei, bus aur local train mei latak kar ghar wapas jane mei.. Fir ekdin subah uthke kaam pe jane kliye khud ko fuslane mei.. Baki reh gaye un sawalo mei, aur roz ke galat jhuthe jawabo mei Socha hai kabhi kaha kami reh gayi? Kaha anjane mei lagaam kuch dhili chordi? Kaha jaan muchkar chutiya ban gaye Kaha bar baar thokar khane chale gaye Kab dil aur dimag ke beech fass kar kuch zyada hi keh gaye.. Aur kaha sab kuch sehkar kadwa ghoot piker chup rehgaye.. Is chatne aur chatwane ki duniya mei vyaktitva ko kyu khote gaye Kyu khokar thokare khakar chup rehne ki addat daalkar, chutiye bante reh gaye.. Kabhi talve chate toh kabhi apne chatwate gaye..

One of the many things that I miss the most about not having Dadi around is, whenever we left for school,my father to his office in the morning. I used to say "Dadi jachi" (Dadi I am going) to which she would scold me lovingly and say "jachi bolte hoyna bolo ami ashchi"(You shouldn't say you are going, say I am going, to come back) and then she used to fold her hands and say " Dugga Dugga ".  I would always purposely make this mistake of saying "ami jachi" almost every day so that she would correct me affectionately. I would ask her to say "Dugga dugga" again and again for extra protection and sometimes I would imitate her saying Dugga Dugga myself. But whenever she said that I would feel safe inside, such that all the obstacles and problems on the way are cleared.  Now nobody says Dugga Dugga when I leave home but when I look at her picture smiling at me before I leave, I can feel it somewhere inside me a faint but vivid soun...

What is it about unattainable men that attracts us to them? Why do women almost always fall for men who they can't have? That unkept beard, that careless smile and eyes like the lake shinning in the moonlight! Huhh! That's my kind of 'Mr Impossible' but I am sure most women will have their own 'Mr Impossible' in mind!(There isn't any dearth of careless cute guys oblivious to the trouble they cause to our poor hearts!)  Anyone at any stage of their lives can have a crush! As I always tell my friends its never too late to have a little bit of flutter in your stomach. Maybe it will make you love and pay attention to yourself a little more.  Has someone ever made you so nervous that you eat your words and forget to eat the food in front of you?  When your crushing on someone you remember their each and every word and gesture.  Every time your eyes meet your heart skips a beat. And you wonder if they're feeling the same.    You stalk them on all possib...

I have reached a point where I have a lot of thoughts and words in my mind but none of them end up turning into a complete blogpost. Perhaps I have lost the patience to sit and complete a post or maybe I've become lazier than I was before. But whatever it is I am here now in front of my laptop to write something which I hope will make up for the long break I took from blogging. As they say Pujo is a state of mind for the people of Bengal. Pujo is not only a religious occasion for the intellectual, communist state of ours but it is a thought where faith meets art, craftsmanship, imagination and creation. Pujo Pandals in Kolkata are made not only for the sole purpose of worshipping the goddess but every year they come up with a new theme to suit the taste of the average finicky Bengali!   Durga Pujo in Kolkata is not a festival but a 4 day long celebration where the whole city gathers together like a big family to welcome the Goddess. People buy and gift new clothe...

Kabhi kisiko dekhkar yun laga hai ke jaise har khwahish ne ek insan ka livaas pehen lia ho. Ke jaise tum kaho aur yun lage ke humare naseeb par khuda ka kuch rehem hua hai. Fir tumhari bhuri ankho mei apne har sach aur jhoot ko dekhliya Na chehra samjha, na roop, na rang bus dekhaa usko aise ki jaise koi insan aisa na dekha ho.. Kabhi kisiko dekha itna roshan itna khoobsurat ke jaise raat mei taro se bhara asman Kabhi kisiko dekhkar yun laga ke bus yahi hai jiske liye zindagi abtak dheeme se chal rahi thi aur ab usko raftar milgayi. Kabhi kisiko dekhkar yun laga ke jaise har manzil usse shuru hoti hai aur usi par khatam hoti hai Ke jaise maut bhi ajae toh usi ka chehra liye ayegi, aur usi ka naam har marz ki dava hogi.. Kabhi kisiko dekhkar yun laga?

I've cried for you in unknown places, famous infamous lanes, in huge monuments and snazzy malls in front of staring people and when you forced me to pose for photographs. Ones that I may never look back on. I've cried for you when you hurled expletives about me and my parents, demeaning every bit of my existence by scraps and chunks not knowing that the damage is permanent. I've cried for you we you left me alone in an alien city and ran away , and watched me find you like a lost child. I've cried when I realized that all this was just a game. I've cried for you often and sometimes clutching pieces of my broken heart which you thoughtfully tore into pieces. I've cried for you in dark lanes and bright corners abstracted by thoughts drenched in the blood of my dying love. I've cried for you when I realized that no one but you knows I am here now. And that you know, I've got no one to run to. I've cried for you when you've shaken me to bits b...

I have dreams the ones that scare me, The ones that engulf me And make me a prisoner they won't set free. The walls come closing in on me. And a sinking feeling tells me, the new dawn I won't live to see. And I just wonder what should I spend this last breath on? Which words are worthy of the last moments, Should I tell you the words you're waiting to hear. Or should I say nothing at all. Dreams the ones I can never compose in verses dreams of a fire burning so bright that it pierces the eyes Dreams of a blinding undaunted ray of light i have dreams that you are moving out of sight.. But dreams are not black or white Dreams that make me all sweaty and restless I wake up and wonder what a show! Because you cant die in dreams you know Dreams that wake you up to chase to other dreams! Those are the dreams I always receive.