Wandering scribbler..

"  I am not ready..ummm...I mean i don't want to... " Zia said " What are you saying.." "I..I don't want to get married.." "What the fu** Zi,I am on my knees proposing and...And your not ready.." Aditya shouted,getting up from the shiny 5star hotel floor... "No..no Dan..don't misunderstand me...I don't know how to say this but..." "Shit..freaking shit..I can't believe you did this to me..!" He shouted agitated by her behavior.. "Jus..just..don't bother..I am leaving..i don't think i want to get into this.." " 'get into this'..Then why have you dragged me into this..We've been together for 4 years damn it and all this while i thought...  i thought we loved each other so i proposed marriage...but maybe i was wrong.. I am just sick and tired of your mood swings..I just proposed to you to get married to me for Christ' sake, 'a no' wouldn't have hurted...

The world is full of chaos....Infact Ma Durga the various manifestations of whose idol we worship her in Calcutta is also a form of chaos.. A good form of chaos though which signifies the victory of good over evil.. It portrays the battle between Mahishasura a powerful asura who overlooks the possibility that a woman should be able to slay him a nd Ma Durga,the  power behind work of creation, preservation, and destruction of the world who  slays him   carrying with her  10 weapons,riding a ferocious lion... It also signifies forgiveness as b efore dying the Asura worshiped Goddess Durga and Ma granted him a boon that he will be worshiped with her till end of time..So whenever we see Devi durga being worshiped we also see Mahishasura is standing under her feet pierced by the trident at his chest... I know I am too small and ignorant to be preaching about these godly things at present but Ma Durga has always been like this old confidante who i used to sh...

"Just tell me what happened will you?" Jia asked.. "You know na we've been fighting a lot lately about his smoking habit.." Meghna said distressed.. "Look  Meghna its hard to quit smoking at once when you're so addicted..You have to work this out with him,just reason it out with him..I am sure he'll quit eventually.." Jia said looking at her watch,10 minutes were left and the OR would be ready.. "Its not that J its..its just that...." and  Meghna  broke down on the floor crying.. " Is everything alright  Meghna ?  Don't cry.. come on now tell me...Heyyy..! come on now, you can tell me,whats wrong?." Jia said quite shocked by the sudden outburst of her friend.. "Today we were fighting about something again and..and.." Meghna  said sobbing.. "And what  Meghna  come on..tell me.." Jia said concerned... And i screamed at him about his smoking habit and he shouted at me back..and..and he coughed ou...

“ Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead. ”

Sometimes the best way to move into the unknown is to take familiar steps, small steps.... But no matter how much you pretend that the way and the steps are familiar you know its the unknown,the unfamiliar, the unexplored that you're moving into and that freaks you out from within... Most people lead lives that follow a pattern like getting out of school,then college and then finding yourself a job and landing up somewhere..being someone...And then there's your personal life in between to juggle..But why is there always a pattern..? I mean I've seen people going back to study a completely different course after completing school and college and doing an internship like this US based uncle who completed med school to get into an architecture course..But most people regard these as stupid decisions they think these people are guided by emotion and not their better judgement... Anything which is not in a pattern or which does not fit into our pattern is considered nonsens...

Life doesn't rhyme...

I wont be writing for a while... I don't know why i am writing this,i don't even  know whether it matters at all.. But I guess people come home to say goodbye.... Its just that sometimes we fall from high places and we fall so hard that it takes time to stand up again and when we somehow learn to stand up it seems even more painful to start walking again... So i think its going to take me quite sometime to start racing again..! Everyone spends a part of their lives playing tricks on life and then life plays a bigger trick on them..! Anyway I hope i will be back soon and write a comical post about whatever happened...! P.s The scribbler keeps checking her blog(old habits die hard..!) often so you could always leave comments on this space...