Wandering scribbler..

" Someone once told me that some of us are actually afraid of the dark; we’re scared of what it conceals from us. We’re afraid of having something with the potential to hurt us standing right before our eyes and not registering it as a threat. People can be like that too. "

I think about silly stuff sometimes maybe because I am coffee deprived now because of my sleeplessness people at home refuse to make me coffee (or let me make it!) ...!!! I mean not always but sometimes nowadays i end up thinking "what if.....?"..(maybe because some of my friends just have to wet my shoulder with tears...!*no not complaining..!!*)  Like the other day one of my friends had a breakup and she was telling me about how lonely she feels as she has lost touch with most of her friends and in the end we came to the conclusion that one should never become too habituated with anyone(which is to a certain extent silly but anyways....!).. And then i started thinking about the few friends i have and what if someday we lose touch or what if we just grow out of each other ...I dint know the answer to that (maybe i could have figured it out with just a simple cup of black coffee ...!!!!) Now i was being really silly but my coffee deprived mind was still unsatisfied and j...

Sometimes when nothing seems right i look into the sky and look for my answers... And in all those stars i try to fathom which ones you are or if at all you are there or not and then like magic i get a weird sense of serenity as if all these questions and all my chaos is projected out to that wild dream worth living...

(Follows from Ehsaas part III  http://memoriesinrain.blogspot.in/2013/03/ehsaassamajh-ke-bhi-na-hosake.html  ) Aj bus keh dena hai.. Samajh paye na paye tu..in baato mei chupe us unkahe se ehsaas ko.. Us ehsaas mei meri sachayi ko....aj bus....abhi....yahi keh dena hai.. Jo hai hum dono ke beech.. Shayad na samajh paye tu.. Shayad pura na samajh payu mai.. Par aj meri bus tu hai..tu hai main hu aur ye unkaha sa ehsaas hai.. bus aj aur intezaar nahi hoga is dilse.. Bus keh dena hai aj.. Kyuki tujhme hi mai hu....aur shayad mujhme hi hai ab tu.. Ye ehsaas bus abhi....bus yahi tujhe samjha dena hai.. Tere na hone par bhi... tu hai yahi..bus yahi.. paas hai mere.... toh abhi toh dur aur nahi rehne dena hai.. Hai ye jo bhi..jo bhi maine mehsoos kiya hai.. Aj bus abhi puri sachayi se tujhe keh dena hai.. Bus ab sab kuch kehdena hai..

Kabhi kabhi yun hi behoshi mei mann karta hai bata du tumhe.. Bata du ki kaun ho tum mere..bus be-inteha the tum mere... Kabhi kabhi yun hi adhi raato k sannate mei.. Ji karta hai suna du tumhe ki kitni raate neend nahi ayi hume.. Kabhi kabhi yun hi nashe mei khud ko dubokar.. Dil karta hai tod du har bandhan kar seema aur bus dube rahu us lamhe mei.. Kabhi kabhi yun mehsoos hota hai.. Kabhi kabhi..kabhi kabhi...  yun... Kya tumhe kabhi hota hai..